Goapele - Don't Be Shy

This song is absolutely beautiful! Classis Goapele just the way I like her. Well worth the purchase whenever it comes out. And very worthy of listening... over and over and over again! Enjoy.

Failure...

So, what do you do when you realize you've worked half a year toward a goal, only to ultimately fail? Well, that's the situation I find myself in currently. Honestly, it's the worst feeling in the world to know that you've failed at something you've tried so hard at.

I've been in law school now for one semester... and I must admit it was a very trying. But I enjoyed it never the less. I worked as hard as I could to make sure that I would be successful, and prove that I did deserve to be in law school. To prove that I had made the right decision in deciding to move all the way from Philadelphia, to Orlando, when there was so much going for me in Philly. I was doing everything that I wanted to do. Then, the law school bug bit me again. You see, I have wanted to go to law school since I was in middle school. I've not dreamed of anything else since. Yet, after one semester of law school I am now wondering if that was all just a fantasy world I was living in. Is law school just not for me?

Needless to say, I am utterly disgusted in my performance and wondering if it will make any sense for me to continue through law school. I have dedicated time, and I'm willing to dedicate more. But, I hate to go through this process to be kicked out of school come the end of my first year. Many of my schoolmates have told me not to stress. Obviously, that's just not an option. However, I do feel a bit of ease in the fact that many say they've gone through the same things and you can bounce back. It's a rat race... and I'm fighting for the big hunk of cheese. The question is... am I lactose intolerant?

I'm seeking the Lord's face right now! One of my very favorite scriptures reads:

Be sober, be vigilant; because your adversary the devil, as a roaring lion, walketh about, seeking whom he may devour. 1 Peter 5:8

Oh... the Agony!

After high-tailing (sp?) it back to Florida to start law school, I must now admit I am not sure what I have gotten myself into. Although I haven't received all of my grades as yet, the one I did receive has me completely bummed! Bummed! Now, I don't want you in anyway to think that I was not putting in my 100% throughout my first semester. I definitely was! Yet, I feel like a total failure. Now, some wiser individuals have told me that the first semester is the hardest you will endure (Thanks Brunsli!). Others have told me that now that I know what to expect it will get better. Well, I'll say this... IT BETTER! Geesh!

Oh... did I mention I had a blast in Jamaica and didn't want to come back! Although, it really isn't anything new to me because that is exactly how it is every single time I'm there. It's like I've learned about this new place that makes all my pain and trouble fade into the sunset. I mean literally, from day one to day ten I was hype. Is that even natural? Well, I am trying to figure out how I can get back there come May and July. Not sure if it'll fit into my school and work schedule but we'll see. Can you see the joy in my eyes?

Not to mention the delicious food and beautiful views? Oh... the agony of leaving Jamaica and being back in Florida! It's just not fair!